Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Oops, I did it again.


 This was me Saturday morning after my long run.  I made it 2 hours and 15 minutes, 13.2 miles.  It wasn't spectacular but it was the farthest I have run since my crash 4 weeks ago and only 15 minutes shorter than was on my training plan.
I started making plans for the rest of my training.  
Plans for how I was going to get back on track and wisely use the rest of my training weeks before Ironman.
There was hope again that I was gonna make it.
Saturday afternoon I wrote it in the sand.  That means its legit. 
Even with my hip sore from my long run hours before I was optimistic, I knew I was going to make it.
Instead I made it here. 
That is not the destination I had planned when I set out for my 6 hour ride on Sunday.
I crashed my bike.
AGAIN!
I don't even know what to say.  
I'm hurt, sad, embarrassed, scared, angry and, and......  It is so hard to articulate what I'm feeling and all the emotions running through my head.
I don't know what the future holds as far as Ironman is concerned or as far as me riding my bike.
I get nauseous just looking at it.
I just need time right now.  \
Time to heal and think and pray.

8 comments:

  1. So sorry about your crash! Hope you heal quickly and can resume your training.

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  2. What? Oh man (woman), that sucks. I have no advice for a second crash except please don't let there be a third. I am going to drink a beer for you.

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  3. missy, I hope you are feeling better! Sorry to hear that you got hurt

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  4. Oh man, so sorry to hear. Sending healing vibes your way!

    Just breathe, you will make it through :)

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  5. I'm so sorry! You have worked so hard and I can imagine your frustration! Focus on healing and hopefully some pampering to get back on it. You are already an Ironman and SuperMom in my book!! Praying for a speedy recovery and the drive to jump back in the saddle!

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  6. I'm so sorry! You have worked so hard and I can imagine your frustration! Focus on healing and hopefully some pampering to get back on it. You are already an Ironman and SuperMom in my book!! Praying for a speedy recovery and the drive to jump back in the saddle!

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  7. Nooooo! What a bummer. Hang in there!

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  8. Hello! Coming out of lurker-mode to send prayers and overall good thoughts. I found your blog thru a friend of mine who posted about the vanilla cupcakes--holy crap those look good. Here's to quick healing!

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